31.12.2008

今天是2008的最後一天~
看回自己的部落格~
原來我這一整年~~~都是活在不快樂和壓力的情況下~
所以~我期待2009~
期待~~~但沒人陪我迎接~
希望跟你度過~卻沒這機會~~~
希望在2009~我不再是一個人~~~
HappiNewYear Panda~~~
all the best~

DreamKnife~~~

today received present again eh~~is my dream knife lo~~green again==wahaha~~still got my name eh~~can c or not??haha....so happi^^thx to my fren~~thx a lot.....panda appreciate it^^

Merry X'mas~~~

merry X'mas~~tis year X'mas celebrate wif my buddy them^^happi~~got received present eh....haha...Green colour shirt is from my best fren~~Everlast watch is from mummy^^damn love it~both also green colour...so happi sia^^thx to my mummy and best fren ....die liao~i was crazy about green=.=~wahaha....
today buddy was go back alr~bu she de...i hate the separate d feel....dun like=.="..sad.
"buddy ah buddy...fast fast come spore work k??off day we all can go out together~miss u.."
tis few days keep raining....X'mas eve also raining...not fun liao....hate....due to keep raining...we cant go sentosa play....haiz....
NewYear is coming~~hope hv a fun nite^^

GentingTrip~~

jz finished my genting trip wiff my family~
long time never go holiday together liao~
it was really happi^^
dint play much leh~
mayb old le~dun like to play le~
haha....
weather also not really good~raining....too cold..
trip was end~
X'mas is coming^^lol...
my buddy is coming^^
looking forward to meet them...

emm...yesterday signed contract liao~
good thing is~i got a place to work liao~
bad thing is~chinese new year need to work~
cant go back celebrate liao=.="
haiz...wat to do~
tis mine job~jz accept it....
cry lo~cry again lo....

校園生活~~就此告一段落....

shatec's frenz~
good luck and all the best in ur future~
mayb we will busy and wont alw keep contact....
but i'll keep u all in my heart^^
especially u~~~...who is "u"????
sure u know la ~no need to mention....
happi holiday~.^
take k all my frenz~

Ololo~~

10Dec2008...11.33am...
finally u called me...u called me^^
u wil never know that i was waited for ur call for a long time...
haha....
I was get a confirm call from GrandCropthone...
I'm being selected...
I get my attachment...
wahaha^^
how happi am i....
going to sign contract on next Mon...
say Congra to Panda^^
lol....

boring~~

feel so so so boring to study leh~
but need to study also~
still got alots~
hotel say today will gv me a call leh~
tell me whether i'm being selected or not~
but until now also havent get any call leh~
start to worry alr~
how leh???

tanning~
swimming~
cycling~
prawning~
shopping~
goGenting~
ChristmasNewyearComing~
Hoorrayyyy!!!!!
panda's holiday is coming^^
it's time for me to relax....
kaka~.^

hope u understand~

doesnt means tht to hurt u~
jz wish to let u to understand tht...
our life is different~
u r not the ppl tht i wan~
i wont say "sorry"
coz is no "point" to apologize...

Holiday~is~Jz~Around~the~Corner....

我這才發現原來跟我聊天是那麼無聊的~~
原來~我在你心中,已經什麼都不是了...
善變的你~讓我看穿了你的心腸~
可怕~
假期快到了...
我要去好多好多好多地方...
一個人也好~或許更好...
我~已不再害怕寂寞啦^^
還有你~謝謝你愛我~~
不過~我更愛我自己...
所以無法對你說~我愛你~....
生命中曾有你的出現~已經夠了...
謝謝你給的溫暖~我感覺到了....
要好好過自己的生活~
不要再在身後等我~
照顧~

RelaxDay~~

exam coming...but i'm going to shopping too on today...
never study~very good....
everytime say poor~no money~~
but....buy shirt and cap again..
very good~~
lol...nice mah~then buy lo...wahaha...
i wan green colour short pant....nice sia...but i hv no money alr=.=
somebody wan to buy for me????haha...
anyway today i'm quite relax and enjoy...
tomolo jz study la...lol~~

weak~~

not enough slp...
body become weakweak le=.="
no energy when exercise....
feel suffer...
leg painpain@.@
T.T

MyLife~~

My life is full of.....stress~
lack of.....money~love~happiness~satisfy~
=.=

Hell...

havent get my attachment...
exam coming...
no money...
miss her....
need someone....
confuse about something...should i????will i kena tipu???but i need it....
hv a suck hair...
holiday coming...on 13th...but dun know when should i go back....15th ah gong come spore....25th christmas celebrate wif fren....jan jz back???like too late alr...
i need money~~money~
leg alw pain....going to patah alr....
chibay~~really chibay....
i hv a suck life....
hope next year will hv a better life....
waiting for u "2009"

T.T

panda d leg was pain again....die....exam coming lo...die....1 day 2 subjects..haiz.....panda is dying....god bless me,,,fuck ya

finally~~~

23thNovember...11.04am....finally i hv finished copy all the note of my stupid project....total 55 pages...=.="....havent paste picture....i'm tired@.@... next fri need to sudmit alr....

惡夢~~

夢見被追殺一點都不可怕~
夢見身邊的人死掉也不算可怕~~
夢見怪物壞人更不怎麼樣~~~
夢見你再一次的傷害我,離開我才是可怕~
我...發惡夢了~~
想你~~~
=.="

6th Interview~~

我覺得我快不行了~~
五臟六俯都快要炸開了的感覺~~
就連睡覺都覺得是罪過~
我累了~~
6th Interview..."Swissotel Merchant Court "...
差不多全世界都去~
機會渺茫~
我很累啊!!!!很累很累啊!!
你們總給人家希望~但到最後還是要讓人失望!!!
不想再這樣下去~~
我撐不了~~~吃不消...

5th Interview~~

就因為英語不好~就輸了人家一半~就少了很多機會~
英語不好~你問我什麼~我就回答得口吃~甚至不懂得如何回答~
你問我問題~其實我有很多話想說~就因為英語不好~我呆著了~想說的話...也不見了~~
如果能夠講華語多好~~如果不緊張多好~~如果....如果....
世界上沒有如果....人生有"如果"....就了無生趣了....
能做的~就唯有在下一個interview...努力表現自己~~~
Next Interview~~"Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel"...
加油lo....

test~~~

fuck la..tis my 1st time tht i'm not in confidence of my test.....chibay...die la....unhappy...not enough study...worry...exam coming also.....fuck la

4th Interview~~

another interview~~
"RafflesHotel"~~~
recently really damn tiredla....
slp so many le still feel tired....
body painpain~~
monday test coming=.="
havent study~~
freaking tired ah!!!!!
chibay~

3rd Interview~~~

3rd interview will be held on tomolo morning...
at OrchardHotel...
finally get 1 hotel inteview...
hell man...
1st time fucking stress....
like all the things cant settle....

2nd Interview~~

emm....2nd interview will be held on monday afternoon...is a restaurant also...named"OneDegree15MarinaClub"....monday morning still got test....die....havent study yet...stress ah.....
can i scold bad words???
of coz ....i can....is my blog.....i write watever shit i like....
chibay ah!!!!!fuck off ah!!!fuck all the stress ah....somemore still got project...project....project....go to hell la....basdard....damn....really damn.....
headache....=.="
now is 1+...need to prepare and go for my 1st interview....nervous.....
dun know wat should i wear....
diela.....

1st Interview~~

finally got the 1st interview...at "canele"...
hope tht is more interview..pls...
god bless me...
moodying....
die...

worries~~~

emm...few days never blogging le....lazylo....
tis few days start to find hotels le....
send to few hotels le...
but all never reply...
worry=.=
some of my frenz alr hv interview le....
hope to get interview soon...
worry~~~

回家~~

人往往就是這樣~
分開了~或失去了~才會珍惜...
很心疼~明明都關心彼此~但我們之間卻隔了個膜...不懂得該如何表達對彼此的關懷...
媽媽不要太操勞~有些事姐姐她們會做了~就讓她們去做~她們都長大了~
看你這樣辛苦~我真的會心疼~
要照顧自己~多休息~~
不捨~不捨得離開~
哭了~我哭了~想你們~~
媽媽生日要到了~
我卻無法做蛋糕給她~
沒用~真沒用~~

==

niaitanameshengwoyehechangbushinezuijingzhendehenxiangnihenxianggaoshuniwozaixiangshenmedankeyimaniyouhuiliwomaxintongxintongniweibierenxintongyinianduolefangbuxiajiushifangbuxiabuguanduoshaonianhounihaishihuizaiwoxinliwoainiwodelaopodiyigelaopoyongyuandelaopoqishimeiyourenbiwogengainizhiyaoniyuuanyihuilaiwozhendebujieyiyiqianwodengni

等你回來~~

你願意回來~我願意等你...
不管三年或五年~~
只要你說聲我願意....
我真的會等你~~
不是傻不是笨更不為什麼....
只因為我愛你~~
可以喜歡很多人~卻不曾愛上任何人...
只因為不管去到哪裡~你都不曾搬出我心上~~~

單身~~

現在單身的人並不少~
所以單身的朋友~請不要不快樂~
你啊...還有你啊....還有你你你.....
甜蜜換來痛苦~痛苦換來單身~~
單身是用痛苦換回來的~
所以現在單身的你~
要好好享受...
不需要刻意尋找...
愛情就是這樣~在你不留意的時候,自然的"墜落"愛河~~~
受傷~讓我們成長...
單身~讓我們變得獨立堅強...
愛情~真的不好惹...

Start to StresS again T.T

exam coming...alots of project...stress....some more not enough slp tis few days...headache...act today wan go back hometown d.....but no more ticket T.T...everytime also like tht....when i decide wan to back then there is no more ticket....make me dissapointed again....make my buddy dissapointed also....fucking poor d weiwei....today still wan buy shirt...lol.....haha...cheap mah....then buy lo...now left 8dollars for 2 days....sunday get pock et money...should be can survive la...lol.....2more months....working....get salary....no need to take money from parents anymore...somemore can shopping buy things^^lol.....2 months more....wahaha.....start to earn money...but is the starting of my tough life also....=.=" scary...

Soup~~

today do soups lo~~nth special~~but the taste quite nice la^^nth special for today~same mood~moody....lol....exam coming~need to study le~boring~~haiz...so down....someone can cheer me up???sucks life~~~

過客~~

我的生命中太多過客了~~
誰才是我永久的乘客??
你們可以喜歡喜歡就跟我很好談~~
不然就一封訊息都沒有~~
人真善變~~~
報應~~都是報應~
一個人生活~寂寞的生活~~
我受過了~~~
謝謝傷害我的你們~我成長了~~
但我還是寂寞的~

over~~

這兩天腳痛痛~不懂是不是傷到筋了~怕怕~傷到就麻煩了~就不可以天天跑步了=.=....不可以蹲不可以伸直~慘定了>.<...怎麼辦~不懂要不要看醫生好~看又很貴~不看又不會好~haiz.....還有那個死人眼睛啊~我看我要瞎了~媽的整天痛~~~

懷念~~~

以前很多歌點~有你的歌我的還有她的歌~現在點來點去就只有兩個人的歌~~

以前唱到要搶mike~~現在一個人都可以拿兩支~

以前整天嫌房小~要換要換~現在兩個人那麼大間~真的顯得有點寂寞~

只有兩個人的照片~就知道我一點都笑的不自然不真的開心~~

好久沒唱歌了~今天我們兩人就去唱歌逛街~其實真的很討厭跟她去唱歌~因為我會想起你們~想起以前的生活~原來﹐兩個人唱的"七情六欲" "最愛最恨都是你" 是那麼難聽的~沒了你的叫喊聲~沒了她的神經~沒了你們的歌聲~真的很寂寞~~buddy啊﹐到底要騙我到幾時???已經不可能七個人了~但至少希望還剩我們幾個還能一直一直在一起~~想你們~~~

壞人~~~

為什麼做壞人的又是我???我又傷害了人...為什麼....這樣下去我要報應到幾時啊???我的真愛就不是不會出現了...女人啊女人...真累人...好累...

=.=

人世間能聽到幾回我愛你???
人世間又能說多少次後悔???
再也沒有永遠的愛情....
愛情跑道太長....
誰會願意陪你一直跑下去???
人~往往總愛半途而廢...或經不起誘惑~
自己也只不過如此~
三心二意的本性改不了~
謝謝你對我的愛意~
我也試着想要接受~
但~我真的沒有感覺~
對我而言~感覺勝過一切~
我不能因為你對我好我就接受你~
這樣以來我只會傷害你~
到最後做壞人的又是我~
渴望愛卻得不到~
那是為什麼~
我~做錯了嗎???
還是....真是緣份還未到嗎???

Sauces~~~

haiz....dunno doing wat stupid sauces again...i'm not in interested....i dunno how to cook it...i dunno when it is alr done....i dunno wat it act taste like....i dunno whether it is thick enough or not....all jz like anyhow....i'm unhappy i'm moody....

chibay, dun wan weiwei alr ah????we r not close as b4....u cant get wat i say.....i'm not understand u....weiwei unhappy....=.=

HappYBirthDayFeRliN~~~^.^

happi birthday to my sis~ferlin^^happyhappy.....the "F" is done by panda o^^the other 2 cake is buy 1 la.....haha....my bro say my cake like scolding ppl....."Fxxx" u.....haha.....not every "F" stand for"fuck".....here, my "F" stand for "Ferlin"....happiBirthdayToU^^...all the best darling....

~KuehDaDar~

emm~~~the colour not nice rite???haha...i also dun know y like tht.....tis called kueh dadar...is a malay kueh la.....inside is coconut....taste quite nice....jz the colour not so nice la...haha....

haiz...asian sweet also at hot kitchen.....fucking hot....feel wan fainted again.....haha

today quite moody....after 3months practical....i'm not ur closer fren anymore...heart pain....but good also...if too depend on u....i will feel more sad when we graduate....but now a bit bit sad also....anyway u still my chibay fren...u cheer me up i remember....u play wif me i remember....when i'm unhappy u was beside me i remember....

fren...come and go.....no one will together wif us forever....jz accept it...and...appreciate it...

today saw him again...everytime saw him my heart quite aching....he's winner....i'm loser....panda ah panda....stupid panda bego panda....

~Let'sCook~

Ololo~~~today we start cooking lo....cooking sauce lo....different type of sauce...make me "keep keep sweating..." sia......so hot cooking inside the kitchen...haha...quite funla....everything no need to measure d...jz anyhow throw in.....and let it cook, boil....haha....after the lesson so smelly sia....emm...really not in interested....prefer pastry....

loser~~~

i dun wan to be a loser anymore....y alw is me???my heart is broken...y wan give me hope???but make me feel disappointed at the end....true love....far from me....but i need it....i cant get it...after today~lets give up....ends up everything....dun be unhappy anymore....
no hope no hurt....
dun need u give me happy....but dun make me unhappy...
panda dun be sturborn le...."impossible means impossible"....
stop trying to cheating urself anymore....

NewSportsShoes~~~

Say ByeBye to ~NewBalance~T.T

Say Hello to ~Mizuno~^.^

new sports shoes^^thx daddy mummy....my old sports shoes was spoil alr.....thts y i need to buy a new 1...no choice....walk for whole day....dunno which brand better....Nike???Adidas???....finally...Mizuno....some brand too expensive....some dun hv my size...some not so good...the old sports shoes together wif me at least 5years...T.T...recently it cannot tahan le.....old le..haha....hope my new 1 can last so long also.....

MoneyNotEnoughAgain=.="

40dollars not enough for me for 1 week....i need to take bus....now bus fare was incleased again....afternoon need to lunch wif fren....own fren almost 100dollars le...wat can i do???work part time again???my life is sucks enough..if work part time again then i hv no time to relax myself...nobody understand....take money for u....u will ask tis ask tht....did u take bus take mrt????did u know tht now no more 2.50 d meal????october....november....december....3more months....january attachment....then i will get my paid....very fast d....jiayou panda cheer up panda^^

HomeNoSweetAnyMoRe=.="

something was changed...we r not close anymore...i dun know wat can i chat wif u....i feel tht sometimes i dun wish to talk wif u....and...more worst...now, i dun wish to go home....i was willing to sit at outside anywhere till i tired....even if i at home, i jz wish to stay in my room and on9....sound so sad....
i still care about u....but i dun know how to show my care....
anyway...i still love u....although we seldom talk now...
change ur "pi qi", dun jz busy of ur work....family is the most important....
waiting for ur changes....but....
i need my sweet home back....is it possible???

~HappDay~

today i was happy....y i happy???dun wan say ah...haha....anyway i was happy today^^

~BasicVegetableCut~

1st day of cooking lesson....learn cutting vegetable today...haha...tis my product^^1st time of cutting vegetable ah....can be acceptedla....haha....not usual at hot kitchen...a bit bit feel wan fainted lo....and very scary sia....scared cut myself....luckily nobody cut themselves today^^so clever~

FM SHE

Yeah...finally SHE out new album la....is 11th album eh....so geng rite???haha...i bought it today....happyhappy^^new song nice~i like it mostly~support SHE!!!!rockzzzz it^^

and today 1st day of theory....fucking boring sia...1lesson 3hours sia...shit...sitting there....going to slp...but cannotla....and i dun know y need to combine class wif other class....feel tht they very irritating....haiz....anyway i hate theory....hope tht the time will pass as fast as possible^^

TheoryLife

theory again....need to wear skirt again....need to wear the stupid girly shoes again...shit....theory....means studyla....whole day in classla....1 week jz 2 days practical la....boring sia...i dunwan...

T.T

dun wish to stay at home.....go out....dun know can go where.....anywhere walk......tired le....go home...at home also nth to do......on9...blogging...unhappy....cry again....T.T....sucks life.....i hate it...

fucking

i'm fucking unhappy ah...i dun wish to stay at home ah....i'm damnly fan ah......chibay....y u wan jealous???y i go back u wan jealous???y???i dun know wat should i do ah.....y i hv 2 family ah???y u wan to say something tht make me unhappy ah....now i feel like dun wish to talk wif u ah....i dun wish to stay at home now ah....i really dun understand y u will say out tis stupid things....my heart is crying...both also my family....wat should i do???give me a break...i need a break....

homesick...

homesick....wan go back....but cannot...wat can i do???cry and cry and cry...stupid weiwei....useless weiwei...go back own hometown still need to worry tis worry tht...useless...

Him

today i saw him...i was unhappy...he look quite ok...like a good guy....i think he can give u happiness....i think i lose le....should i continue to fight for my love?dun wish to give up...i'm really like u....i miss u....

Give me a chance pls.....

Give me a chance...i can give u wat u want....
Give me a chance...i can give u happiness...
Give me a chance...i will make u happy...
Give me a chance...i wont let u cry...
Jz give me a chance...i will be ur good lover...forever^^

ProDucTion

wuwuwu...fucking tired sia...i hate to go back production sia....T.T.....still got 3more days....kill me ba...i need to rest...i need to have a break...i need holidays.....i wan go home.....T.T.....panda is fucking tired...
FUCK ah~FUCK ah~FUCK ah~FUCK ah~!!!!!!!!
ChiBay.....Bego...Bastard.....Damn u all....
i'm really tired.....crazy alr@.@

幸福...

何謂幸福???
有錢花就幸福???
有好東西吃就幸福???
被愛就幸福???
對我而言....喜歡你,就是一種幸福^^

喜歡你...

喜歡你~卻不敢表白~是真的喜歡你~但你的冷淡,讓我想放棄~或許真的不可能~所以才沒有告白的勇氣~老天總愛玩人~讓我無法得到真愛~總是讓我痛了再痛~

It was gone....^^

~ SoftBuns~

~ChocolateCake~

~StrawberryBavarois~

Finally the stress was gone~relax alr~but act do not so well la....messy....not enough time...many things not good act...anyway...it was end^^hope so so can pass la....

~FinalExam~

fucking stress~fucking stress~fucking stress.....
exam~exam~exam....
really stress sia...cant slp.....
die liao~die liao~die liao....
somebody can help me=.=

不想實現的對白...

如果我真的喜歡你怎辦???不懂....
你會喜歡我嗎???不會...
我有機會嗎???....不懂...應該沒有...
為什麼????你...有喜歡的人了???....原因很簡單....我不喜歡女生...
好吧....謝謝你讓我知道你的答案....不再打擾你了....祝你早日遇到你的幸福....
以上的對白都是純粹幻想....哈哈...paise....^^

i was cried becoz of u....

we long time never talk le....
u long time never call me....
and i never call u also...
today u was called me...
u said u miss me....
u said u long time never heard my voice alr...
and....u was cried....
u make me cried also....
i promise....if really got time i will go back c u k?
take care....i miss u too...mum....

T.T

thx...thx for telling me the truth....thx for let me know tht impossible between she and me....thx...and thx for hurting me.....u will never mention tht ur words r hurting me....
REMEMBER....no hope no hurt....
nobody can hurt panda anymore....no one....
i'll protect panda...

L.O.V.E

everybody need love.....i know u need...i need it also....u try to get it from me....but i try to get it from her....and she was get her love from others....haha...lucky still got family love....i can get it from didi meimei daddy mummy^^ but i know tht i need a lover also....dun wish to be alone....i know u dun wish also.....but...i cant give u anything..... u say i cant understandd u....then who else can understand me also??? u know wat i need??? u will never know also....coz even thought me myself also dun know act wat i need....
"impossible means impossible"
"impossible means 'i'm possible' to do something but is truely impossible between us"
jz let me be alone....i like someone....but impossible....so jz let me be alone ba...
no hope no hurt~
no happy no sad~
i'm panda....lonely panda....@.@

lame....

it was fucking ass boring at outlet....tis was wat we do when we r fucking ass free....haha...then we give to sir..."sir, tis is specially make for u."....wahaha.....funnyfunny~

emm...trying to enjoy my life~trying to make myself happy~^^and it was really happy and fun^^lol....

F.A.M.I.L.Y

Daddy&mummy^^

Didi~.^

lol~it was raining~we r running~but i still can take photo~didi still can pose^^haha....c daddy protect mummy...so touch^^we wetwet~but happy~lol....

FAMILY=Father and Mother I Love You...

sucks life...

我受不了啦...真的受不了啦...什麼鬼生活啊...沒有人能了解...或許現在走的是霉運吧...總覺得沒什麼是順心的....沒錢~手頭緊~做工還要看人臉色~
我...真的不快樂~我討厭現在的生活~何時才能解脫~等久久啊....
我要放假~我要回家~我要回以前的生活~
現在的生活真的沒意義~每天就是等時間過~
我的生活沒人了~心情沒人知~

不想被傷害~也不想傷害任何人~所以我選擇一個人...

簡簡單單的生活~我還是我....
一個人~也沒有什麼不好~
心已上鎖~鑰匙不見~沒人解得開...
註定單身...

沒錢...萬萬不能...

或許...現在是我最窮的時候吧...在這現實的生活﹐沒錢真的萬萬不能...今天的我終於開口要加零用錢了...因為我實在是承不下去了....什麼都要用到錢...還欠朋友錢...長這麼大了還跟家裡要錢...有點過不了自己...不再逛街, 不再亂買東西, 只因為我真的錢不夠用...沒錢, 沒娛樂, 更沒快樂...
我...答應我自己...未來的我...不會是窮人...

panda was changed....

wat happen to me sia??? i got problem.... i like to be alone.... i like to work alone.... i like no fren.... i cant close wif my fren.... i was changed.... y will become like tht??? sometimes i will become fucking ass serious.... serious until my fren scared me.... not dare to talk wif me... wat can i say??? wat can i do??? sorry fren...

*TheModernThyme*

Destination~ShaVilla~

Menu~TheModernThyme~

~Onion Bread~

~Appetizer~

~Soup~


~Sherbet~

~Main Course 1~

~Main Course 2~

~The ways of doing Butterfly~

~Dessert~

~Petir Fours~

At the end of the EC...

finally our EC was end....it was fucking ass tired....stress....we meet alots of problem....the bread is damnly sticky...so difficult to do...but we did it...we do around 500nos...the butterfly.....make us tiring also....alots of work....must handle it carefully...easy to break...our desserts.....need to do it layer by layer...troublesome...anyway, its a good experience....we learn alots of things also... pls:appetizer, soup, main course is did by culinary student^^

wat the hell...

sir, i know u r teaching me something....i feel happy and lucky tht u can teach me something tht i dun know...but sir....y must use tis "yu qi" sia???i know i cant did well...but tis my 1st time sia...feel down...moody....give me sometimes....panda will work hard....hope tht 1 day sir will say tht..."WELL DONE!"....if i think i can....I CAN!!!!
panda can...panda gambateh....panda dun give up~...cheer up^^

分手快樂~

分手快樂~祝你快樂~你已找到個更好的~
分手一週年快樂^^
panda已單身一年lo.....真的是他媽的破記錄....wakaka~
不過我總覺得有些事是註定的...
分手是遲早的事~
老天讓我在開學前的幾個月就失戀了~就是不想讓我影響學業啦^^
開學那麼久了也沒有新對象~就是要我好好專住學業啦~哈...
老天對我是好的....總有一天會讓我遇見"你"
811快樂~

珍惜...

做人要懂得知足珍惜...不要等到失去了才來後悔...
她愛你...真的很深...我很羨慕你...
她願意在網絡上說我愛你...就證明她對你的愛不平凡...
她在乎你...她需要你...別再讓她不開心...
不為什麼...只因為我愛她...希望她開心...希望她過得好...
朋友...能相愛是緣份...但緣份能走多久...得靠你們兩去維持...
祝你們幸福....~^o^v

money no enough 2.....

真實...跟現實生活中一樣...把人的真實一面完全演了出來...真的他媽的感動...也領悟了不少...
年輕時﹐真的要好好孝順父母...不要有機會讓自己說後悔...
不是有給家用就叫"孝順"...
父母老了不要把他們當作是負擔...更不要把父母丟去老人院....
父母永遠把子女擺第一...願意為子女付出一切...父母永遠最偉大...
以後賺錢了不要大花...養成儲蓄的習慣以防萬一....(這個對我來說很像很難~)wahaha....

1st day of EC.....

chocolate melting....mousse melting....desserts not enough....alots of problem....fucking tired...from morning work till nite....shit...fucking ass....wuwuwu....tomolo same....still need to wake up early in the morning and go back to sch to do our desserts and bread....work till nite again...die la like tht...sleepy~let's go slp...Zzzzz....tomolo start work again~hope tomolo everything ok~gambateh panda^^gambateh guys....

T.I.R.E.D.

u know wat is tired or not???u know wat is fucking chibay tired or not???alots things need to do sia....stupid EC...fuck...wuwuwu...T.T...gambateh guys...i know got some problems...i know sometimes will argue becoz of somethings....i know is stress....i know....i know...but dun give up guys...2 weeks...jz 2 weeks....gambateh~

lol....^^

u say...love begans from zero...finally ends wif zero...
but i say...love begans from u and me....finally ends wif u and her...
love begans from bb&dada....finally ends wif...
love begans from our love story...finally ends wif urs story...
love begans from sweet...finally ends wif loneliness...
love begans from "i love u"....finally end wif..."i STILL love u".....^^

他媽的無辜倒霉...

在烏節路走着走着...突然有個美麗的小姐朝我方向走來...跟我說了幾句....她說英文woh....還說的那麼快...我當然不是很懂啦...但"charity"這個字還聽得出來....捐錢lo....女人女人....女人惹的禍....說多兩句我就拿錢包出來了...原本想捐兩塊給你開心下的啦....怎知是最少二十塊!!!!二十塊啊!!!!之前誰叫你講英文講那麼快...害我沒聽清楚....錢包拿出來了沒理由不捐吧....捐lo...不過還好是做善事啦...算了...過後就搭巴士回家lo...上了巴士纍纍的就睡着了....睡下睡下....就到了總站lo....Wah!!!我在哪裡啊???原來搭錯車....damn...又浪費我的錢....也浪費時間...沒辦法lo....又慢慢搭回去lo...haiz....整整花了我兩小時多的車程....累死啊!!!!

Super Fuckoff Tortoise.....

so wat...yayaya...u all r rite....we alw wrong 1....job we do....u all do wat???curi tulang...fuckoff....especially u....u think who r u???very clever ah????can be a pastry chef alr rite???chibayla....patient...patient...patient....tahan...tahan...tahan...
"can u help me go and take this???" "wrong!!!who ask u do tis 1???i din ask u do rite???" "Wah!!u good in washing eh.....can go and apply washing job!"
wat can i say???
"Yes Chef " "Sorry Chef " "Yes Chef " "Sorry Chef "
Although U r NOT a real CHEF......
damnly chibay angry.....thts all for me......

panda was sick...>,<

so pity...so suffer...wuwuwu....T.T

impossible means impossible....

不可能的定義就是不可能...不管你再怎樣努力奇跡也不會出現...再努力等於白費心機...希望也等於失望...趁早放棄, 對你我都好...大家還是好朋友...永遠記得﹐女人等於累人...專主學業事業才是重要...心疼罷了嘛...又不是沒痛過...再痛的也承受過了...沒什麼大不了...原來這世界上﹐真的是只有我...最愛我自己...只有我, 才不會傷害我自己...

我們怎麼了...

昨晚不知吃錯了什麼﹐也不知哪來的他媽的的勇氣﹐告訴你了事情的真相...不說還好....說了也不能當沒事發生過...你卻叫我平常心對待...我辦不到...說了就是說了...不可能當什麼事都沒發生過...在你面前掩飾得很辛苦的我...難道你真的看不出嗎????知道你很難接受事情的真相...我也不想這樣...我們還能像以前那麼要好嗎???
人家總說快樂是自找的...快樂掌握在自己手裡...我一直都不快樂...我很想快樂啊...曾經的你讓我了解什麼叫快樂...但快樂永遠都是短暫的...很快的﹐你也要我了解什麼叫心疼...

我與你的...友情

一個親親一個擁抱並不代表什麼...別太介意好不好...那只是我對你的關懷...知道你擔心什麼知道你緊張什麼更了解你不開心什麼...你不開心...我也很自然的不會開心....還是習慣看着總是愛笑的你....所以最近都會想要逗你....但你實在太認真了...因它而認真...根本無法再跟我開玩笑了...今天的你哭了...壓力終於把你壓得撐不住了...還記得剛開學的我也曾因被壓力壓得喘不過氣而哭了...當時是你在我身邊...而如今的你難過落淚﹐我卻無法在你身邊...
身為朋友的我...會支持你...加油chibay...

Onion Bread....

finally i found it....onion bread....happy....tried different types of bread....sir reject....try again....adjust the recipes.....failed.....throw...too watery....too dry....din follow sir instruction....until today...finally...we success^^damn happy....b4 tht my heart really aching...pain....feel wan cry...stress....stress until dreaming still doing bread.....ololo...ha...~work hard=success~
hope our event catering will success also ya^^gambateh guys.....
damnly tired....today is friday...tomolo no need back to sch....dun need to wake up early in the morning^^ha...

心情很低潮....好像沒什麼值得開心的..."快樂"????哈...我就快不會寫這兩個字了...很想你啊...你不會懂...以前﹐現在﹐未來...你都不會懂...我愛你....truly...deeply....madly...你永遠不會懂....因為你選擇愛別人....贏了lo...謝謝....謝謝你們的傷害...沒有人會了解我的傷是有多深...因為我愛你....真的很深....很深....很深....謝謝你拿走了我的一切...謝謝你...我恨你...
很想哭...很累啊....人生短短﹐不想每天都過得那麼無趣....我要快樂!!!F.O.

moody>.<

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happy 20th birthday.....

我知道伤心不能改变什么

那么~让我诚实一点

诚实~难免有不能控制的宣泄

只有关上了门 不必理谁

一个人坐在空荡包厢里面

手机~让它休息一夜

难~想切歌 切掉回忆的画面

眼泪不能流过十二点

生日快乐～ 我对你说

蜡烛点了

寂寞亮了

生日快乐

泪也溶了

我要谢谢

你给的你拿走的一切

还爱你~带一点恨

还要时间

才能平衡

热恋伤痕

画面重生

祝你生日~快乐

alone sia....

ololo....damn tired....is not work until tired...is stand until damnly tired....damn free...nth to do 1 also.....somemore start from tomolo...i need to be alone at the afternoon shift....boring boring boring.....wat's my job????2.30pm reach there...nth to do until 5.30pm......5.30pm bake bread.....jz take k them....dun let them overbaked....emm.....about 20mins like tht....after tht nth to do until 8.30pm.....8.30pm prepare some danish and breads for the morning shift ppl.....quite easy also...take out from the freeze...put on traay.....wrap them then put into the fridge....done....then nth to do again....unless got guest lo....we need to prepare dessert for them....jz decoratela....then wait until 9.30pm...keep all the caake into the fridge and clean up then go back.....F.U.C.K......

fuck them...

wake up early in the morning....reach there 7am.....after changing,the chef ask me go back....come back again at 2.30pm......he say we never call him.....but we called......they never told us our shift....thts y 3 of us go there early in the morning....but,me....is the unlucky...only me go back...haiz....go back lo....where can i go....still early....afternooon go againlo....haiz.....waste my money.....take train take bus and take train.....fuck....afternoon alone sia....scary.....god bless me...T.T

rosette...

tomolo need to start sch la....holidays is end la....damn fast....1st day of sch need to go so far...somemore early in the morning...5am need to wake up...meet fren at 6something....7am start work....dunno will hard or not leh.....will give ppl scold???a bit bit worry la....emm....try my best....hope wont do any mistake...new semester...new life....without mad....without chen...haiz.....enjoy the new life...gambateh panda....

damn bored...

everyday at home also dun know wat to do....eat slp watch tv and on9....act good also la...let me rest....after going back sure no time to rest alr...jz a bit bit bored....yesterday gathered wif frenz....happyhappy...emm...all of them doesnt change much....same like b4.....haha.....me2 same,still like to kacau kelly...wahaha....haiz...tis time gathered le dun know need to wait until when la.....panda no more holidays until dec....dun know when can come back again....anyway,wont forget u all d^^take k frenz.....

愛情~友情~親情...

愛情友情真傷感情﹐還是親情最真情....人家總說愛情最脆弱...但﹐原來友情也是一樣這麼經不起考驗...經過短時間的分開﹐大家都各奔前程﹐對彼此也漸漸陌生了...覺得很心寒....還記得七個死黨的夢想嗎???八個門的私家車...哈...為什麼是八個門呢???七個人﹐一人一個﹐還有一個當然是要留給司機lo....哈哈....老人家坐後面....天真的我們﹐還說要擁有自己的店....你剪頭髮﹐我打理廚房﹐還有她算帳﹐忘了還有你調酒﹐她們服務顧客....當時大家都知道是不可能﹐但卻越說越開心^^

很多事都變了﹐你﹐不再是以前的你了...我﹐也因為莫些事改變了....她﹐或許已不在乎七個人的友情了....我們還可能再聚嗎????

melaka....

yesterday evening i was went to melaka to fetch my buddy come back....her fren followed...she got a crazy fren^^
melaka....it was a sad place....act really damnly dun wish to go back...let me think back all the bad,worst memories....my heart still will pain....i dun need happy.....but at least dun make me unhappy again....i jz wan a "ping jing"life...almost 1 year....u and me break up almost 1 yearla...u found ur happiness....how about me???ha....

hometown....

come back 2nd day alr....nth special.....erm....today going to sch and play ball wif fren....enjoy,relax,happy^^ha....haiz...come back also like nth to do....wish to go back....dun wish to hv holidays,jz wish to stay at sch....wish to continue my studies....miss my sch's life....

holidays...

exam is going to end....holiday is waiting for me....it's time to go back...scared unhappy again...hope i wont...jz 1 week....enjoy holidays wif family,frenz....let's be gone by be gone....if unhappy,jz thinkthink......ur sch's life....u will be happy again...if u think u can ,u can....haha...weiwei....must be strong ya....one day u will get ur happiness also....now jz focus on ur studies,ur breads ur cakes...dun worry be happy^^

july...

next month need to separate alr...mayb u think tht is ok...but....dun wan separate can or not?separate for 3 months...bastard....3months cant study together, cant work together, cant go home together,cant.....ya...i'm depend on u....i know....u wan scold me...i know....
weiwei really glad tht to know u...u coloured my life.....thx for sharing the happiness, sadness and many many together.....huhuhu....wish to cry sia.....u r the fren who know me much much much...so, i appreciate u....i know u will worry....but dun need to worry^^..u and i....best best best fren....more than fren(mummy)....haha...

finally exam.....

ololo....today only my cake can be accept sia......haiz....my creme brulee cannot.....my bread was heavy...haiz.....so sad sia...stupiak weiwei....y will like tht sia?dissappointed.....

love...

你們又再次分手了...這真的是你們要的嗎???一起兩年了﹐說長不長﹐說短不短﹐明明相愛﹐卻為了無理頭的理由鬧分手...說什麼沒結果﹐更說什麼是為了老爸...拜託啦!!!如果真是沒結果當初為什麼要開始???為了老爸更是離譜...女人就無法養老爸哦???一定得找個男人回來養你老爸嗎???無聊透了...真不明白...全天下的情侶聽好!不要再把愛情當游戲了好嗎?一點都不好玩...傷人...
再過兩天﹐也就是十一號....就是我單身第十個月...時間過得好快....這麼快又要一年了....單身久了﹐自然覺得單身的好....一切過的很平靜...很久沒有那種甜蜜的感覺了...單身生活﹐偶爾難免感到寂寞...一個適合自己的對象不容易遇到...一切隨緣...絕不能強求...
其實﹐我一點都不想一個人....

~DONE~

finally....my wedding's cake was done...wahaha....is over....is over is over....haha....but jz can relax for few days only la....coz exam is coming.....today my cake ok....decoration is simple....but at least i still can handle the marzipan and fondant.....ha....happy happy....stress for so many days, cant ever slp well....sir said tht my idea was there....is ok....jz try to make it "3D" .....then my cake will become more attractive.....so sleepy...i think i wan slp le.....nitezzzzniteZzzzz.....

nervous....

somebody can tell me tht how should i overcome my pro.....yesterday dun know y i cant cream my cake....i know...i'm nervous....everytime also like tht.....sir also told me tht no need to scare....scare for wat.....if u scared u cant do anything....i know...but i still will 緊張when i c tht everybody can did well and alr done but i still cant do anything.....i feel tht i'm退步alr....jz becoz of less practice???or i'm too tired and cant do well????i'm really dun know.....anyway....yesterday i was really down....my heart was aching......tis was my 1st time tht i cant cream my cake and cant decorate it......my fren also told me tht must relax......dun stress dun stress dun stress....say is easy but is difficult to do it....
thx for being beside me concern me listen to me and give me some advices...thx....
hope tht tis coming fri i can do well my wedding's cake and wont hv same mistake again....
panda is damnly damnly sleepy....tired....lets stop here and continue next time.....Zzzzz.....

stress...

chibay damn stress sia....dun know how to do my cake....practice until tired, sleepy....but....1 nice flower also cant get it....fuck man...die liao die liao....panda die liao....not enough slp also....my eyes was ichy and pain....i wan cry liao.....wuwuwu T.T......hope tht all the things faster end faster end.....then i can enjoy my holiday....long time no stress le.....haiz....wedding cake...like impossible sia....so so so challenge...if i really can did well so i will feel damnly happy la...still got 2 more days like tht to practice....gambateh weiwei~

project...

today we was discussing and doing the project at sch....the project was almost done...but i was like doing nth sia....feel guilty...
chen,mia,mad....if u all c my blog....i wan to say....i feel really very very sorry to u all guys.....same group wif u all but i was like cant help....i feel tht i'm so useless>.
today i was alr bought the mould for doing the flowers things...cost me 37something....expensive....jz becoz of the wedding cake then need to buy it...i know....tis things can use for whole life....but i think tht i'm not good at doing tis such of stupid flowers....until now i also cant do a nice rose....but....i'll try my best on my wedding cake....

soya beans...

today dun know which fucker steal my drinks"soya beans"...fuck....hope tht the ppl was having diarrhea after drinking my drinks...wahaha.....how was tis happened?ok....let me tell u...tis morning i buy a soya beans, cost 1 dollar....fuck....then i put it in the IS fridge...after the lesson, i wish to go and get my drinks, but it was alr lost....damn...fuck the ppl....
headache about my wedding's cake...dun know how to decorate well...next week need to do it le...how sia???
shit..
tonite dun know wat happen i was so angry.....i scold my sis sia....haiz....after think back my heart not feeling well also....wat happen to panda???y become like tht?y like so easy to get angry?y so impatient?must change myselfla....haiz....

apple strudel....

today we doing apple strudel....something like pie la....apple like tht lo....i'm not did well....unhappy....moody...heart aching....y?coz i'm impatient....c ppl do fast me myself wan to do fast also.....so, my paste was not rest enough....force roll...too much dusting...finally,my apple strudel become sucks....i hv not really much patient....i dun know how sia...

after sch shopping alone again...

haiz....wish to watch movie alone also...

but not dare ah....haha....

alonealone....pandaalone...lonelypanda....weiweialone....

今天的我都不是很敢跟你說話...不知你有沒有察覺到...

心里不舒服...

真的很想告訴你...

我喜歡你...

但是不可以...

還要假裝不關心你...

如果真的讓你知道了....

我們...還會是好朋友?

sunday...

today dun wish to work sia....fucker....wish to watch movie at home....but cant....damn...boring...lucky tomolo no work...after practical can go home rest^^jz now try to do corn cake....sucks....damn....not really know how to handle the hoon kueh flour lo....if add in the hot water will get lump sia...haiz....tis week no do much pratise at home eh...today free free so jz try some new thingslo....next week need to practise decorate my wedding cake le....guys,hv any idea alr? my idea is quite simple sia....coz i cant do the rose wif gum paste....ha....so i need to do others thingslo....quite simple...but act no really easy also la...haha...hope tht i can do well^^gambateh panda....simple is nice sia.....

.....

jz wake up...die...is a good nap....long time din slp well le....so sweet...

未來.....

你們有沒有想過自己的未來啊?

以後的你會變成怎樣呢?

我的未來...總覺得我的未來會蠻辛苦...

因為要賺錢養父母啦....

haiz.....爸爸媽媽都比人家多一個,你說我的未來會比人家不辛苦嗎?

自己又是一個那麼愛花的人...

但我有點不想儲蓄的理念eh...

覺得生命太脆弱了....

什麼事都有可能在一瞬間發生....

或許一瞬間掛了﹐儲蓄的錢﹐也無法帶走...

所以我想以後賺多少就花多少﹐無須做太多額外的儲蓄...

哈....但另一方面來說...如果沒有儲蓄﹐我不是要一直做工做到掛為止???不然怎麼生活啊???哈...

未來啊未來...

說遠不遠...說近倒又不是很覺得....

還是現在好好過活最重要吧^^

矛盾...

有些東西隱藏在心里是很辛苦的...很想告訴你,但我知道不可以...除了掩飾,還是掩飾...心疼誰能了...寂寞有誰知....給你知道還得了...哈哈...還有押韻,不錯不錯...

sir was angry>.<

tis was the 1st time time tht we saw mr.sammy tan so angry sia....wat the fuck am i doing tht make sir so angry.....alr 19 still so childlish and play inside the kitchen....stupid me....c sir unhappy my heart also not feeling well sia....fuck....

學業>事業>戀愛>成家>小孩

原來我還在"爬"的階段﹐意識說現在的我﹐只適合專著在學業﹐什麼都不該想...朋友老愛問我﹐幾時要找個新對象啊??? 一個跟自己合得來的人不是那麼容易遇到的...即使真的遇到了﹐或許也會有種種障礙吧...

有誰不想戀愛﹐又有誰不想被人疼呢???應該是沒有吧...

i need a person who care about me....

i need a person who love me more than i love her....

i need ^U^ to stay together wif me forever.....

i need a person who will not hurt me...

WHEN the person will appear in front of me???

is it u???

or is she???

mayb is him???

i think the person is *MeMySeLf*

i wont hurt myself

i love myself alots

but....i dun wan to be alone

5.19am

5.19am alr wake up man......fuck.....cant slp well....yyy????prohect not yet finish la...yesterday nite fall asleep alr....havent finish yet....later need to discuss alr....fuck....yesterday nite dinner wif my bro....long time din dinner together alr.....eat buffet.....25dollars per person....not really nice sia....ha....really not enough slp la...fuck....i think i need to stop here...need to continue my stupid project....

20May2008...

Doing hotdog buns today....joining group b...quite boring...doing the buns myself....after tht go out read magazine myself...damn bored...like no frenz sia....chibay....no choices la....tomolo morning need to work...if not i will join back my group...i was doing twice times sia....coz 1st time dun know y got lump in my dough...tis was test....so i need to do well...then i do again lo...finally the result also almost same la...but the different is...other ppl jz hv 6-7 buns...i hv so many sia...c the pic....haha..and not bad also....quite soft...many ppl say my1 nice sia...haha...happyhappy...very happy....happy very...

Today i get my new book also...."On Baking"...so thick sia...haha....act pro^^free jz read it la...67dollars eh....quite expensive....must appreciate it and read it ....

After doing the stupid buns then go home lo....wish to slp but not dare to slp...scared cant wake up....coz evening need to work sia....so jz lay down 15mins then i wake up alr....so tired....my eyes feel so pain...talking about working...walau...the new worker....i'm really cannot tahan lo.....say wat she also like not understand....show her dun know she really know or not...anyway is damnly tired work together wif her la....chibay....