stress...

chibay damn stress sia....dun know how to do my cake....practice until tired, sleepy....but....1 nice flower also cant get it....fuck man...die liao die liao....panda die liao....not enough slp also....my eyes was ichy and pain....i wan cry liao.....wuwuwu T.T......hope tht all the things faster end faster end.....then i can enjoy my holiday....long time no stress le.....haiz....wedding cake...like impossible sia....so so so challenge...if i really can did well so i will feel damnly happy la...still got 2 more days like tht to practice....gambateh weiwei~

project...

today we was discussing and doing the project at sch....the project was almost done...but i was like doing nth sia....feel guilty...
chen,mia,mad....if u all c my blog....i wan to say....i feel really very very sorry to u all guys.....same group wif u all but i was like cant help....i feel tht i'm so useless>.
today i was alr bought the mould for doing the flowers things...cost me 37something....expensive....jz becoz of the wedding cake then need to buy it...i know....tis things can use for whole life....but i think tht i'm not good at doing tis such of stupid flowers....until now i also cant do a nice rose....but....i'll try my best on my wedding cake....

soya beans...

today dun know which fucker steal my drinks"soya beans"...fuck....hope tht the ppl was having diarrhea after drinking my drinks...wahaha.....how was tis happened?ok....let me tell u...tis morning i buy a soya beans, cost 1 dollar....fuck....then i put it in the IS fridge...after the lesson, i wish to go and get my drinks, but it was alr lost....damn...fuck the ppl....
headache about my wedding's cake...dun know how to decorate well...next week need to do it le...how sia???
shit..
tonite dun know wat happen i was so angry.....i scold my sis sia....haiz....after think back my heart not feeling well also....wat happen to panda???y become like tht?y like so easy to get angry?y so impatient?must change myselfla....haiz....

apple strudel....

today we doing apple strudel....something like pie la....apple like tht lo....i'm not did well....unhappy....moody...heart aching....y?coz i'm impatient....c ppl do fast me myself wan to do fast also.....so, my paste was not rest enough....force roll...too much dusting...finally,my apple strudel become sucks....i hv not really much patient....i dun know how sia...

after sch shopping alone again...

haiz....wish to watch movie alone also...

but not dare ah....haha....

alonealone....pandaalone...lonelypanda....weiweialone....

今天的我都不是很敢跟你說話...不知你有沒有察覺到...

心里不舒服...

真的很想告訴你...

我喜歡你...

但是不可以...

還要假裝不關心你...

如果真的讓你知道了....

我們...還會是好朋友?

sunday...

today dun wish to work sia....fucker....wish to watch movie at home....but cant....damn...boring...lucky tomolo no work...after practical can go home rest^^jz now try to do corn cake....sucks....damn....not really know how to handle the hoon kueh flour lo....if add in the hot water will get lump sia...haiz....tis week no do much pratise at home eh...today free free so jz try some new thingslo....next week need to practise decorate my wedding cake le....guys,hv any idea alr? my idea is quite simple sia....coz i cant do the rose wif gum paste....ha....so i need to do others thingslo....quite simple...but act no really easy also la...haha...hope tht i can do well^^gambateh panda....simple is nice sia.....

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jz wake up...die...is a good nap....long time din slp well le....so sweet...

未來.....

你們有沒有想過自己的未來啊?

以後的你會變成怎樣呢?

我的未來...總覺得我的未來會蠻辛苦...

因為要賺錢養父母啦....

haiz.....爸爸媽媽都比人家多一個,你說我的未來會比人家不辛苦嗎?

自己又是一個那麼愛花的人...

但我有點不想儲蓄的理念eh...

覺得生命太脆弱了....

什麼事都有可能在一瞬間發生....

或許一瞬間掛了﹐儲蓄的錢﹐也無法帶走...

所以我想以後賺多少就花多少﹐無須做太多額外的儲蓄...

哈....但另一方面來說...如果沒有儲蓄﹐我不是要一直做工做到掛為止???不然怎麼生活啊???哈...

未來啊未來...

說遠不遠...說近倒又不是很覺得....

還是現在好好過活最重要吧^^

矛盾...

有些東西隱藏在心里是很辛苦的...很想告訴你,但我知道不可以...除了掩飾,還是掩飾...心疼誰能了...寂寞有誰知....給你知道還得了...哈哈...還有押韻,不錯不錯...

sir was angry>.<

tis was the 1st time time tht we saw mr.sammy tan so angry sia....wat the fuck am i doing tht make sir so angry.....alr 19 still so childlish and play inside the kitchen....stupid me....c sir unhappy my heart also not feeling well sia....fuck....

學業>事業>戀愛>成家>小孩

原來我還在"爬"的階段﹐意識說現在的我﹐只適合專著在學業﹐什麼都不該想...朋友老愛問我﹐幾時要找個新對象啊??? 一個跟自己合得來的人不是那麼容易遇到的...即使真的遇到了﹐或許也會有種種障礙吧...

有誰不想戀愛﹐又有誰不想被人疼呢???應該是沒有吧...

i need a person who care about me....

i need a person who love me more than i love her....

i need ^U^ to stay together wif me forever.....

i need a person who will not hurt me...

WHEN the person will appear in front of me???

is it u???

or is she???

mayb is him???

i think the person is *MeMySeLf*

i wont hurt myself

i love myself alots

but....i dun wan to be alone

5.19am

5.19am alr wake up man......fuck.....cant slp well....yyy????prohect not yet finish la...yesterday nite fall asleep alr....havent finish yet....later need to discuss alr....fuck....yesterday nite dinner wif my bro....long time din dinner together alr.....eat buffet.....25dollars per person....not really nice sia....ha....really not enough slp la...fuck....i think i need to stop here...need to continue my stupid project....

20May2008...

Doing hotdog buns today....joining group b...quite boring...doing the buns myself....after tht go out read magazine myself...damn bored...like no frenz sia....chibay....no choices la....tomolo morning need to work...if not i will join back my group...i was doing twice times sia....coz 1st time dun know y got lump in my dough...tis was test....so i need to do well...then i do again lo...finally the result also almost same la...but the different is...other ppl jz hv 6-7 buns...i hv so many sia...c the pic....haha..and not bad also....quite soft...many ppl say my1 nice sia...haha...happyhappy...very happy....happy very...

Today i get my new book also...."On Baking"...so thick sia...haha....act pro^^free jz read it la...67dollars eh....quite expensive....must appreciate it and read it ....

After doing the stupid buns then go home lo....wish to slp but not dare to slp...scared cant wake up....coz evening need to work sia....so jz lay down 15mins then i wake up alr....so tired....my eyes feel so pain...talking about working...walau...the new worker....i'm really cannot tahan lo.....say wat she also like not understand....show her dun know she really know or not...anyway is damnly tired work together wif her la....chibay....

1st post....

starting my 1st post.....

nth special.......

now is alr 12.32am.....but i'm still on the line.....tomolo still got class...shit....jz doing a hotdog bun then come back....a bit bored sia....coz tomolo joining group b....a chi din beside me.....sien....anyway....i will enjoy also....haiz.....after study then working again.....quite tired and boring alr la....but wat can i do.....no money how????F....U...C...K......and my daddy....haiz.....today keep nagging my sis....alw wan to save money.....cant use too much electricity....i'm rather tht we live at a small house...more save money...dun need to use much money....then he wont scold ppl...thts y i need to work....so tht i no need to take money from them....i can buy anythig tht i like it.....haiz....fed up man!!!!!wat the hell life is tis......fucking ass holes....