it was like so so so long time din update my blog~
is there anyone still reading my blog?
lol....
emm...recently my mood quite down~
i know a gal from club~
i thought i found *her*
i thought she is the 1 i wish to meet~
act not=.=
i'm jz a player to her~
quite sad~
y my life like tht leh?
y until now i still cant meet my true love leh~
wat the hell~
god is playing me~
haiz~~~~
christmas is coming~
buddy is coming to sg and celebrate wif us again^^
i think will be fun~
but i'll be fucking tired lo~
still need to work~
after fuck off from work then still need to crazy wif them!lol...
but is ok la~ha.....long long once time mah~
haha....
graduate soon~it is at 14th of jan~
after tht will hv a short break~
then come back become a full timer~
dun know cny can back or not leh~
hope so so can la~haha....

u~and u~
walk away from my life~
4ever~
thx~

it was jz a game~
pls dun be too serious~
pls dun blame me~
i'm not the person who get wrong~
=.=

讨厌离别=.=

some1 told me tht 1 day u will leave me~
u will going to another better place~holding same or better position~and of coz, better salary~
we cant work together anymore~
i'm scared~i scared i will cry~i will bu she de=.=
thx chef~thx for being my chef~and taught me alot alot of thing~and thx for sharing ur experience wif me~
i hope tht i can learn as many as possible from u b4 u left~
i hate tis kind of feel=.=
i'm sad, moody when i heard tis news~

no off day until next next week ah=.="
but money is come to me~lucky la...
money~money~money....
i need money~
still got alot of things no buy yet~
lol....

一旦喜欢上了~我会努力追求~
一旦爱上了~我会疯狂争取~
我的执着行为却仍然无法打动你~
我是白痴~~~哈哈哈...

wat am i work for?
money? myself? my chef? my job? my interest?
=.="
is it really worth for it?
i'm tired~really tired...
F~

YooHoo~~~
my chef was came back to work on today~
she was fine now^^
happi happi to c my dear chef ah~~haha....

wat the fuck of the day~
so sien~
today back to work lo~
going back jz know tht my dear chef was kena H1N1 woh~
mc for 1 week~
Sienzzzz....
failed to do my thing today~
haiz~dun know y~mayb no mood~
after work wish to jog geh~
but stupid raining day==
dissapointed of my mummy~
say wan acc us go watch movie~
but she jz busy of her work~
fed up~
moody ah~
ZzzzZzz.....

ololo~~~jz back from hometown...
tired~~~
dun wish to come back ah...haha~
but tomolo got to work lo~wat to do~
tis times go back never meet u leh~
abit regret~ha...
miss u~take k.

i'm happi tht u say u miss me^^
mayb u r kidding~mayb jz anyhow say say~
but i was really happi^^
smiled while reading the msg~
i miss u~keep waiting 4 ur msg~
nor matter how tired am i, ur msg is my support~
really~~~
hope to c u~

11/8

times pass damn fast~
alr 2 years la~~
today is 11th of August~~
is an unforgettable day for me~~
we break for 2years la~
and I single for 2 years la~
emm...everything fine here~no special feel alr act...
jz~~~cant forget it~
hope tht u everything fine at there too~
take k~

sick not yet fully recover=.=
still got coughing and shang feng><
wat the hell~~~~
tomolo start to OT again~
10am to 10pm==
hope i wont get sick back~~
today is my off day~
spend whole day at home~
do wat???slp!!!!
tis my 1st time slp for whole day~
wake up~eat~slp back~then wake up then slp again~
OhMyGoddddd~~~
body become weak weak after get sick==
jogging also no energy liao~die....
i'm missing u~did u know tht???
u never know tht~
even u know tht, u also will pretend tht u dun know~
anyway~~~i miss u...

i'm sick~but today still got to work~
work so slowly~like going to faint down~
feel tht today time pass very slow~
4pm~~finally...finished work~
walk to clinic=.=
c doctor~Oh MyGod~~~~
got fever~38something~
cant go to work~got to mc for 2 days=.=
when sch time like to mc la~
but now~really dun wish to~
some more tomolo act got OT~can earn extra money~
but doctor say cant work~
got to check whether got H1N1 or not==
stupid ah!!!!
some more got to pay by myself to check whether got H1N1 or not~
stupid hotel never pay for us!!!
stupid ah~~~
no energy liao~got to rest....
and....i miss u~if can, really wish tht u r beside me and take k of me~
i need u=.=

曾经你说~我的唯一缺点~就是太爱他...
现在我把唯一的缺点也改了~
你却不爱我了...
曾经你说~你会很有耐心的等我~
原来一切都是谎言...
埋头工作并无法忘记你~
累了让我更是想你~
因为我想要你在我身边~
在我累累的时候给我加油打气~
我想你...

"不要浪费时间在我身上..."
这是今天你对我说的一句话~
我~呆着了~崩溃了~不会工作了~
这样也好~至少我不用再猜测了~
爱情得不到~唯有专住事业~
下星期都得加班了~
忙好啊~没有多余的时间胡思乱想~
放工回来累累就睡~
爱情不能强求~我尊重你~
你快乐就好~
不打扰你了~
晚安~

你是不信我啊~还是不相信远距离的爱情~
你是真的对我没感情啊~还是不敢投入这段感情~
我累了~我猜你的思想猜到我累了~
我认真时你却不在乎~
很久都没这么认真过了~
换来的结果还是零~
不开心~闷闷不乐~提不起劲~你却不明了~
想你~每天都想你~
想要你在我身边~想要听你声音~想要知道你过得好吗~
你却对我无动于衷~
心疼~心寒~我累了~
除了等待~还能做什么~

Num3^^

happi happi^^get num3 for my 1500m and 3000m run^^
not so good not so bad
but i alr feel satisfied
coz alr did my best~
thx to my chef~
thx for allowing me went for my competition~
thx chef~feel so touch^^
emm...from now i will guai guai listen to my chef and do my best on my works^^
feel so happi so shiok^^

对你的思念~
有口难言~
对你的喜欢~
不知如何开口~
心情复杂~
"如果连自尊都已经不再需要~这个世界什么爱你买不到..."
如果真是这样~我愿意用我自尊来换取你~
天~涯~海~角~追~到~你....

不开心~生气~我哭了~~
觉得受委屈~
但又能怎样~
只是早两分钟打卡~
你就扣掉我半小时的钱~
那我早进来叻~
怎样算~又没的算~
只好算了~
你是chef~我只是个trainee~
跟你玩~只有被你玩死~
选择不休息~回来做OT~
最后换来的是什么~
这样的待遇~
经一事~我又再长一智lo~

当你在乎时~我却不曾珍惜~
当我在乎时~你却不再回头~

告白了你也没反应~
说到底只不过想要我知难而进~
我等你~

wat the fuck am i doing on today????
chibay~really chibay....
today was my 1st day tht i cant concentrate on my job~
did mistake~cant do well~~
and i did a suckssss macaroon~~=.="
i dun wan like tht~~~
babe~i'm missing u~i really do~~~

本是两个世界的人~
勉强在一起~会幸福吗?
想说 "我喜欢你~我要追你~我要我们在一起~...."
却没勇气说出口~
害怕~害怕说出口~害怕被拒绝~害怕受伤害....
就这样....继续单身生活~~
收拾心情做工去~~~

jz back from genting trip~~~
is a happi gathering wif my buddy them^^
afternoon sing k~nite go clubbing~
long time never clubbing alr~
all drank like hell~~lol....
miss them~
dun know when can meet again leh~
unhappi=.=
becoz of some reason~
is alrite~slowly slowly i'll forget it~

今天 的我大发雷霆~
很久都没发那么大的脾气了~
不懂的人情世故~
不懂的如何待人处事~
搞出了那么多事~
我得好好学习~~~
出来社会后~~~才了解世事不简单~
总觉得得戴着面具做人~
很累~~~
只想好好工作~埋没工作~
什么都不想再理了~可以吗???

unhappi today=.="
pls dun change my life~
pls dun disturb my life~
dun let me feel tht u r a freaker~
dun let me hate u~
dun let me avoid u~
so pls~~~
dun disturb my life~~~~
u r not some1 special to me~
i can live without u~

最近比较烦~
很多东西想~
又不知如何表达~
纳闷在心中~
没人了解~
闲~闲~闲~~~

终于都了解何谓"跳进黄河都洗不清"啊~
解释只会越描越黑~
不能做什么~
唯有~@忍@....
毕竟是个很好的机会~让我修修我的脾气~
平时老爱说人家~
今天被人家讲到......
好不是滋味~
以后就收收自己的嘴~
少一点说人~
给自己积点福~~
不开心=.="

要成功~就要付出~
要成功~就要牺牲~
牺牲时间~生活~娱乐~
甚至得牺牲陪伴家人和"你"的时间~
我~真的能做到吗???

只要我爱你胜于你爱我~
你就会是世界上最幸福的人~

想要找寻曾经错失的一切~

我想你~你却不知道~

其实早已习惯单身的我~
应该继续单身~不该想无畏的

focus on my pastry~

不要浪费时间去想一个不会想你的人

Oh My God~~~
how careless~stupid am i~~~
drop the whole tray brownie~
how careless am i~
stupid~
no more next time pls~

不知道自己想要什么~
不清楚心里想些什么~
不敢前进~害怕结果~
但~至少现在的我很清楚~
我在想你~

曾经何时~我变得那么胆怯~
变得连说喜欢你的勇气都没有了~
或许~是因为害怕再次受伤害吧~
害怕失去~讨厌心疼~
我~选择了沉默~

第一天做夜班~
应该是身体适应不来~
很不舒服~
头晕晕~很想吐~
一个人真爽~
整个厨房就是我的~
哈哈~没人管~
还有两天~
希望今晚身体不会再那么辛苦~
haiz~~~真担心自己的身体亮起红灯~
=.="
是时候休息了~~~

finally~~~i was success in doing macaroons^^
nice macaroons^^
love it~~~~
YooHoo......how happi am i^^kaka.....

shit man~~~
hotel no business~not busy~kitchen dun need so many ppl~
chef ask me to clear leave~~~i dun wan=.="
and next week i got 3 days need to work midnite shift woh~
finally can learn bread~
not bad too~~~~
sien ah~

YooHoo~~~power man^^...
today is my off day~
i was slept till 10am sia~~~
wahaha~~~long time never slp so long hours alr~~
haha~shiok~~
wake up~
hv a cup of coffee~
went for a jog~~and....
went for shopping wif me myself~
bought a new sport bra~
haha~tht's my day~
quite bored and lame~
but relaxing~~~~

习惯早起~即使回到家乡也是一样~
七点起床~载弟妹上学~我可真是个好"哥哥"啊....哈哈
吃个早餐~看看报纸~再去晨跑~~
感觉好舒服~空气清新~跑多两圈都没问题啊^^哈哈~
这次回去和爸妈都多话聊了~
彼此之间的隔膜好像渐渐消失了~
做了个母亲节蛋糕回去给老妈品尝~
老妈就是老妈woh~再难吃也都会说好吃~
还是家乡生活好~
五天就这样过去啦~
明天又是上班天~
千篇一律的生活又来lo....

我该怎办？
谁人能给我意见？
该如何选择？
想这样～但却觉得不可以～
很烦～～～～～
选择了～会后悔吗？
怎么办～～～～

昨天又睡迟啦~睡多半小时....
幸亏没迟到~但还是赶了些~
今天就睡不好了~因为怕再次睡迟~
真的是他妈的~~~~~~鸟蛋....
我~~~需要一个 "你" 每天叫我起床~
那就太幸福了~我还可以赖床^^

tis week no off day...=.=
tiring sia....
no choice lo....not enuf ppl work....
wat to do...
lucky got paid....
hope after tis can go for holiday la....

HappYBirthDay~~~

HappiBirthday to panda^^
make a wish~make a wish.....
emm....i hv many many wishes eh....
can i make alot alot of wishes.....
i wan...
1. u become mine.
2. success in pastry life.
3. coloured my life.
4. holiday.
5. ipod touch.
6. tattoo.
7. new beg.
8. new shirt/pant.
9. more frenz.
10. buddies and family alw beside me.
11. go overseas
12. .....
13. .....
..................................................

too many alr la....greedy sia....haha...if jz can choose 1, i onli wan u become mine, alw beside me^^
Happi 20th Birthday PanDa~~~


and thx my frenz...."bb and susy".....thx alot....feel so touch^^

today went for steamboat wif family~
they celebrate my birthday wif me^^
berry full ah~~~~
and i'm really happi to spend my time together wif my family^^
20years old lu~~~~old jor....
time past freaking fast woh~~~~
i dunwan=.="
too fast alr la....

1,2.....3?!!
Eh?!!!....should be hv 3 trays rite?
y jz one...two?!!!
where's the other 1?
i jz realised tht....it still inside the oven!!!!!
and become a "Chao Da" cheesecake=.=
Wat the hell....
forgot to take it out....
not jz burned the cheesecake...and i burned my hand too...=.="
painpain...T.T
i felt tht my body become weaker, weaker and weaker....
everyday feel so tired....
less exercise also....
everyday finish work jz wish to go home slp....
died=.="

haiz~~today made mistake again woh~
sorry chef~i wont repeat again=.="

迟到~~累累@.@

应该七点上班~~
今天的我竟然会睡过头~~~
六点半才起床woh~~~
他妈的吓死人~~~
还好~老爸叫他的工人载我去~~~
到那七点半~~没有迟到很多~
睡迟的后果你们知道吗???
就是没有冲凉~没有早餐吃~更没有时间大便....
eeuuuuu.......恶心~哈哈....
去到工作那~~~一大堆的工作等着我~
真的是他妈的赶啊~~~
累死~~~
从开工就忙到放工~~~
怕怕~~怕了迟到~
以后再也不敢了~

today i was went back to sch to get my result~
not bad~~3.73...
but...i dun hv any special feel....
for me...it was jz a paper...
shatec change alot...
mayb..is me...long time never go back alr....
now shatec's student no need to wear uniform...
wear home cloth...
and now....the compre. exam is freaking easy to them...
meet my fren~~~and of coz~~i meet u^^little b~~~
happi to c u~~hope to meet u soon~~~
today was my off day~
went for shopping~moovie~and...massage wif my fren^^
lol....relaxing~~~
tomolo start work again~
i got to slp~
NiteZzzzz~~~panda....

为什么我的心中总有一个你~

可以吗 让我和你对调

希望换成你 爱我爱得快要疯掉

知道吗 你对我多重要

只是现在的我们并不适合拥抱

爱随着风飘荡 飘过了你嘴角

飘到天涯海角

把我困在这城堡 哪里也逃不了

我不要别人温柔的怀抱

听不见你的心跳

连我熟悉的味道 再也闻不到

我只要你喊我一次就好

从前亲昵的暗号

多想再次亲耳听到

让我暂时的依靠

那是短暂止痛药 很快会失效

你只要再哄我一次就好

让我可以很骄傲

记住我拥有过的好

记住在你怀里微笑

上帝在制造亚当时~也不忘了制造夏娃~
因为上帝担心亚当一个人会太寂寞~
所以~上帝在制造我时~同时也制造了我的另一伴~
是...这样的吗???
是真的吗???
感觉身边的人都在恋爱~
唯独我一人~独自流浪=.=
可悲~~~

我把它们放在一起了~~~
只希望它们能永远在一起~
一直幸福下去~
我们呢???
还有复合的机会吗?
答案是~~~~没有!!!
或许你早已另有新欢~
也或许依然对她念念不忘~
而我这个傻瓜~~~
依然还在等待奇迹的出现~

拿了几天的假回家乡~
今天刚从家乡回来~~~
明天又要上班lo~~~
又回到千篇一律的生活~~~
回去真爽^^
和弟妹去玩~还聊了很多小时候的事~~~
很开心~~~
好久没那么开心了~
最近有些事烦~~~
一年后的我~到底该去哪???
想不通~~~
那就一年后再想吧^^kaka~~~
睡觉@.@

我累了~

我真的真的真的很累啊!!!!
很厌倦做工的生活~~~
不是我不喜欢做~~~
我很喜欢很enjoy做甜点的感觉~~~
但就是很厌倦搭车搭车的生活!!!!
尤其是早上和放工时间~~~~
挤到~~~~~~~~爆炸!!!!
站到我脚痛到~~~~
真的真的真的很累....
二十岁的我~~~就每天过着厌倦的生活~~~
其实真的有点小后悔那么快踏入社会工作~~~~
二十岁的年轻人~~~应该都还在念书~享受校园生活~~~
厌倦新加坡的生活~~~只因为朋友在这不多~
所以生活变得了无生趣~~

生活千篇一律~
很没有意思~
我~~需要一点点的刺激~~~
无聊透了啊!!!!!!

整天都提醒自己不要犯错不要再犯错~
但每天还是会犯错~
=.="
还被说手脚慢~
整天都在提醒自己要快又准~不可以再犯错~
haiz~~~stress~~~
today take wrong ingredients again woh~
haiz~~~wat happen to me~~~
wake up wake up!!!!!
stop dreaming la~~~~

其实我了解~我爱的...是以前的你~并不是现在的你~~~
因为~我根本不认识现在陌生的你~
我~走不出过去~
老想回到过去~
怀念以前的感觉~
关心彼此~
呵护对方~
每天一个拥抱~
轻声细语的在我耳边说"我爱你"~
快乐的回忆因为有你~变得更美好~
不好的我会努力忘了~
快乐的我会永远牢记心中~

為什麼不管我做什麼都是錯的~
為什麼不管我做什麼你們都不滿意的~
為什麼你們總是不信任我的~
我的心很痛~
很想哭~我不想每天都做一樣的東西啊~
這樣下去我根本學不到任何東西~
請你們相信我~
我真的很用心在學好做好~
你們對我的質疑與否定~
對我的打擊真的很大~
我真的是不知該怎樣做下去才好~才能令你們滿意~
我的心在哭泣~
但我也告訴我自己~一定要堅強!

"人, 是很可悲的, 因為有記憶"
"而我的記憶, 全部都是你給的"
"到底, 誰才是最可悲的呢?"
"唯一能讓我心動的你, 回來好嗎?"
Life is too short~jz wish to let it sweet~~
mind to help me?

寂寞~~~

最近又開始感到寂寞lo~
有好幾個朋友都要回國lo~~
感覺越來越沒有朋友了=.="
有時在想~為什麼我要在這過這樣的生活叻~
沒朋友沒娛樂~
整天就是做工回家做工回家~
有點想回去kl做~
畢竟還有朋友~
但只是想而已啦~
回去錢又少~學得肯定也不會很多~
haiz~~~寂寞~誰能了~
懷念讀書時候~

沒事就是喜事^^

最近很少寫網上日子lo~~~
是好事~~~
證明我沒有心事~~~
哈哈^^
工作還好~~
慢慢地跟上了他們的步伐~
知道什麼時候~該做些什麼~~~
只希望自己能做的更快更好~~~
開始做工後手又粗粗了~haiz~~~最頭痛就是這個~~~
整天還弄傷~
不是燙到就是割到~
加油lo~panda^^

NeverGiveUp~~~

i need to be fast....work fast~do fast~~~~faster faster faster~~
and nicer also~~~~fast and nice~fast and nice~~~~fast fast fast fast~~~~
but must be nice also~
i'm stress=.="
i cant cope it >.<
i need to be more stronger!!!!
i can d~i can d~~~
i really hope tht i can cope it~~~
stress until alw make mistakes now...
use wrong speed for the machine~
take wrong ingredients~
out of idea to deco~until i work very slow
T.T.... i'm going to cry~~~
stress~stress~stress....
but i wont give up d!

@.@

lol....today i was lost my phone~but lucky, get back alr~
forgot to take and put on the McD's table~
aiyo~~~so careless...when i realised, i fast fast run back to the McD....
but, my hp was not on the table anymore~
then i borrow phone from the McD's supervisor~
the ppl who take my hp was a stupid~
he dun know how to turn off the hp~
when i called, luckily can get~and he was answer~haha.....then he give back to me lo~wat to do...rite~~~haha...
am i lucky???
or the ppl stupid???
lol....

How To Improve Myself???

my pipping like sucks~
my creaming like shit~~
wat should i do to improve myself?
when can i become somebody?
when my dreams will come true?
practice make perfect~~
=.='....haiz....hope so~

C.N.Y.

Oooo~~cny is freaking tired~
not enough slp~
jz slp few hours~~
haha...but cny is like tht d mah~
impossible go back slp 1 rite?haha....
happy and enjoy^^
got meet wif frensla~
got go sing "k" wif my buddy them la~...although is not 7 ppl al =.="
and got chatchat and gambling wif familyla....
happyhappy^^
haiz~~really dun know when can back le lu~
tomolo need to work lu~
is time to slp~Zzzz.....

Freaking happi^.^~~~

有轉機...有轉機...
初一初二有得休息啊~~我有得回家團圓啦~^^
哈哈~真的很開心很開心....
開心到睡不着啊~哈哈....
即使睡着了也會偷笑啊~~哈哈....

Finally Can goBack~~~

Yeah~~~got 2 off days on next week^^
can go homela~~
although is not chu yi~
at least can go back la~~haha....
wait me~wait me.....
wait me go back celebrate^^

Everlast~~

today bought new shoes~Everlast^^
cost 50dollars~~a bit bit expensive~i will appreciate it d^^
got 4 colour~red~green~black and brown~
green nice ah~wish to buy~but i buy red woh~haha....
coz too many green le la~later really become tree woh~haha....
so sorry~no pic available~~haha....

新年快樂

跟媽媽說...對不起~不能回家跟你過年~不能陪你吃團圓飯....
很想~真的很想回家團圓....
很想親口告訴你~但我怕自己話還沒說完就先哭了~
媽媽不要擔心~我在這裡做工很好~
他們都肯教我~我學到很多東西~也沒有人欺負我~
累是累啦~但做工是醬的lo~我會多休息的~
一定是想問我做工有沒有吃飯叻~
有~我有吃飯~這裡的吃飯很像buffet醬的~
有飯有面有水果甜品salad~所以不用擔心lo~
等一有假期就回去看你啦~
媽媽~恭喜發財lo~

1st day of working...

nth much to say~~~
jz wan to say tht....我要學的東西~~還有很多很多....
panda jiayou^^

mizz U

想你~真的想你~
想起以前的點滴~
想起以前的快樂~
朋友都說~不該活在回憶里~
但沒有你~就沒有這些回憶~
想着想着~~有時不知覺的笑了^^
快樂或不快樂的回憶都抹不掉~
你說~不管誰愛誰~都已成歷史了~~
我說~~我對你的愛~不只是歷史~
愛是永遠不會消失的~或許...只是換個方式吧了~

jz came back from hometown~~
i was cried~~i was cried when say goodbye to u~~
mum~miss u and love u~i really do~~
go back feel boring woh~
but when back~she bu de woh~~
haiz~human is like tht d~
feel sad~~
come back need to prepare to work le~
mon start work~
hope everything will be fine~
gambateh^^

feeling come back~
wat should i do~
cant do anything~
impossible will forget~
impossible will fang xia~
still love u~i really do~
heartpain~~
really heartpain~~~
u really change~
all the best to u in the future~~
to me also~
dunno....when can we meet again...
i really wish to....

HappiNewYear~~~

Yeah!!!! new year lo...so happi^^
2009~~got 9 eh~ my lucky num~~hope is my lucky year also~~haha
jz finished countdown wif fren~
tis year never wif family=.=
outside damn crowded~if can wish to stay at home also~but promise fren le~no choice~
nth special leh~every year also same d~
but~~suddenly feel touch when countdown tht time~
and when c the fireworks~~feel so happi~
feel like "ming tian hui geng hao" or alot of hope in 2009~~haha
i really got alot of hope lo~~
i wish....and i wish.....and wish too hv.....
haha~~cant say out la~
hope tht all my dreams can come true
happi~happy~hapPy New Year~~^^